Meaning

At what point do you realise that everything you've been doing so far is worthless??? I mean what's the point? Either you try hard to achieve something you regret or just be lazy and regret that you've achieved nothing! It all comes down to regret. Cause you're never sure and you're never satisfied! You greedy bastards!!! Isn't this enough? What more do you want? I'll tell you what. You're the same as me. And i know exactly what it is that you need. That's what i need too. MEANING!!! The only thing that's missing from our lives. That's what you call meaningless! You can pretend all you want that everything is how it supposed to be but you don't fool me. I know. I'm in the same shit. Maybe deeper ^-^ There you have it. Nothing helpful for you here. Only realisation. Wise words from an untalented, unqualified, stupid person. Me ^-^ Please Don't let me think. It's Dangerous!

Overthinking

It just happens, you know? Comes and goes. You can call it whatever you want. Bad luck, bad decisions, wrong judgement, too many drinks etc. It happens though. Most of the times there's barely anything you can do. And if there is, you fail to act miserably. What can you say? Except fuck, shit, ffs, fucking hell etc. Scars. Everywhere. Who gives a shit right? Well i do. Oh never mind me. I'm just getting older. Realising more and more the lies i was fed. So what to do? Continue on the same road? Do i start doing shit the same way the ones before me did? Not sure what to say. As much as i enjoy dreaming, reality is the only place to live in. I guess a good place to start is by suppressing my ego. What i want or what i think, isn't always right. Maybe it is for me but not so sure about the others. Suppressing, suppressing, suppressing, suppressing... My head hurts! Don't let me think. It's Dangerous!

What was i thinking?

Ever thought what it would be like if the leader of the country(any you want) was no other than the neighbor your grandma used to buy eggs from? And the rest of the government officials are his goats!
Some times i can't tell if its a joke to laugh about or a twisted nightmare that makes you cry. With all the brown-noising in the air, i lost my line of thought.

Depressing

Found another moment to sit down and start blubbering. Yes. Here we go again >.< Well what can i do? It's unavoidable! ^-^ So anyway. I was watching a video the other day about leaders, dictators and power. It got me thinking. Is it that bad to want something different than the current status? I know haw the system works(well partially) and what it needs, but i can't stop thinking about all the casualties. Those who are in a way sacrificed, just so targets or goals can be achieved. I always believed that there's going to be a time that everything is going to get better, and that the suffering of others isn't going to be something that we will still discuss. It seems that we are creating more suffering knowingly, than we did when we had no clue. Why are we sitting idle, with our mouth shut, closed ears, and we look away? So much fear spread around by groups in control. We are more divided today than we ever were. So f*cking depressing. If only people were more eager to help than to be helped... 0_0 Well, what can you do? We're just a bunch of selfish bastards right? O_o
Don't let me think. It's Dangerous!

Dreams?

I happen to know a lot of people. I mean really a lot! A boy's dream or a girls dream, that is something i could not get my head around. Everyone had their own thoughts and ideas, and they believed different things. Some active and some passive. Some i miss and some i don't. Some i hurt and some hurt me. Some are here and some are gone. Still can't get my head around it. Everyone is free (not really) to pursue their dream (but don't) but is that dream worth it? How can you tell that you're not just another loon? And where's the value in that dream? ex. is money all you want? Or is it just a way to get to your real dream? I don't understand. Where does the dream really start? How would you know? Are you sure? It might just be another idea of yours. What i came down to is that every real dream involves sharing. Not always with others but still sharing. It could be with nature or animals. Basically it's sharing with whatever you care about deeply. If you don't then that's just your ego going crazy, not a dream. Do i have a dream? No! I don't! I have dreamssssssssssss! Always there. Looking at me non stop. Stalking me like sweaty perverts. Even when i'm taking my clothes off! You stinky twats! Go away! >.<
Don't let me think. It's Dangerous! 

Tik-Tok

Am i wrong? Question for a start. How wonderful! Now listen. If people have buttons that if you push they go "off" and you know about it, then if you do push them its your fault (in some cases). BUT! If some people don't have buttons, but timers that go "off" at any given time, and if you are someone like me, then you punch whatever the fuck you find and you don't ask questions! There are some moments where you may choose to say nothing, just so you will spear yourself from all the bullshit, but in those moments where extremely hot blood rises and fills your head, you just act accordingly. Slap that bitch and slap her Hard!!! I know it makes no sense to some, but i'm sure it does make sense to some who face similar situations ^-^ Cheers to those who do !!! I'll buy you a pint some time later! (If i see you that is. And if you do know that is me and you do remember about what i wrote here, which is rather unlikely, lucky me!) So anyway. If there's a point then this is it. I don't take shit from anyone! You may go "off" at any given moment but be very careful not to push my buttons. You might not be glad that you did! I'm not gonna kill you of course. But i'm sure gonna wipe the fucking floors with your face.
Don't let me think. It's Dangerous!

You're a Loon

Madness is not that far away. Just take the time to calculate the potentials of your abilities and the results of your inabilities, and you're there! Ha ha! A proper loon! Can't escape it. Although you can find ways to distract yourself. Many things to choose from. They make you look sane again. But you still are a loon!!! Can't stop thinking of Woody the woodpecker's laugh!!!