Time Limit

The one thing i'll never understand. Life! I think i understand the rules but i don't really go by them. I guess i like to make my own ^-^ That doesn't exclude me in any way though from reality. You see i'm still in the same game as you. My time is limited though. I've seen and heard so many cases where people used their remaining time accomplishing great things, but i'm not one of them. I'm a coward. Curled up in a black hole. I don't know how much time i have so what's the fucking point. What about you? Are you a coward? Don't let me think. It's Dangerous!

Meaning

At what point do you realise that everything you've been doing so far is worthless??? I mean what's the point? Either you try hard to achieve something you regret or just be lazy and regret that you've achieved nothing! It all comes down to regret. Cause you're never sure and you're never satisfied! You greedy bastards!!! Isn't this enough? What more do you want? I'll tell you what. You're the same as me. And i know exactly what it is that you need. That's what i need too. MEANING!!! The only thing that's missing from our lives. That's what you call meaningless! You can pretend all you want that everything is how it supposed to be but you don't fool me. I know. I'm in the same shit. Maybe deeper ^-^ There you have it. Nothing helpful for you here. Only realisation. Wise words from an untalented, unqualified, stupid person. Me ^-^ Please Don't let me think. It's Dangerous!

Overthinking

It just happens, you know? Comes and goes. You can call it whatever you want. Bad luck, bad decisions, wrong judgement, too many drinks etc. It happens though. Most of the times there's barely anything you can do. And if there is, you fail to act miserably. What can you say? Except fuck, shit, ffs, fucking hell etc. Scars. Everywhere. Who gives a shit right? Well i do. Oh never mind me. I'm just getting older. Realising more and more the lies i was fed. So what to do? Continue on the same road? Do i start doing shit the same way the ones before me did? Not sure what to say. As much as i enjoy dreaming, reality is the only place to live in. I guess a good place to start is by suppressing my ego. What i want or what i think, isn't always right. Maybe it is for me but not so sure about the others. Suppressing, suppressing, suppressing, suppressing... My head hurts! Don't let me think. It's Dangerous!

What was i thinking?

Ever thought what it would be like if the leader of the country(any you want) was no other than the neighbor your grandma used to buy eggs from? And the rest of the government officials are his goats!
Some times i can't tell if its a joke to laugh about or a twisted nightmare that makes you cry. With all the brown-noising in the air, i lost my line of thought.