Wednesday 28 October 2020

No title needed

Been so fcking long. Why now? Why again? Stop. Make it stop. It hurts. More deep than ever. Thought it was done. Not sure now though. Is it regret? Is it just cause it is unfair? What is fair then? Don't care anymore. That's a lie. Done so much better things and so many happy memories. So many people and new connections. Even after finding someone to care about. Still can't forget that pain. What a fcking mess. Need something. Something to make me stable again. Can't have it given to me. Need to find it myself. What about tomorrow that i will forget everything? I make no fcking sense do i? Well. Some might get it. Some with scars that never heal. That's it. Can't make myself more pathetic. Enough. Come back to the present. Back to Now. Laughing and crying. So stupid. That's what i get for being me. 
Don't let me think. It's Dangerous!