The future

The future is here. Now we need a new future to imagine. New ideas. New hopes. New dreams. New fears. It came so fast, we don't even know its here. No reactions. Unfortunately we are so deep into our problems that we don't pay attention to anything. So many great stuff that we fail to see. Such a waste. We used to dream. Now we're just surviving. We're at a point where knowledge is used to manipulate us and not to make us smarter. So sad. How did we let this happen? Well go team dickheads. Don't let me think. It's dangerous!

It's Complicated

Some lies are truths, and some truths are lies. Perspective makes the difference. Not everything is what it seems and almost anything is just what it looks like. Everyone misunderstood and none taken the wrong way. The most wonderful people are the most disgusting, and the most horrible ones the most beautiful. I'm sure of everything, but i can't say for certain. I love the way i feel, but i hate the way it is. So many things i wish they could happen, So many more i hope they never do.
If you think i'm complicated, then try and understand how much more complicated this world is. The only way it can function is when we come together. Alone, we fight. Together, we live! Don't let me think. It's dangerous!

"Normal"

There was once a boy. He wanted to learn it all. He wanted to learn "how" to learn it all. Mainstream ways weren't enough for him. Not satisfying. He created his own. He was "goooooood". Although he got rid of the mainstream ways, he could not escape the mainstream problems. Those followed him around quite often. He did not pay attention. For him the problems were too mainstream to bother. Time past, really fast. And now mainstream problems are his biggest issue. Funny isn't it?! He was soo abnormal and he had to do everything his way. In the end he ended up fighting to gain a "normal" status. A "normal life". A "normal future". But "normal", doesn't exist. It's just a fantasy. Nothing is normal. And certainly not him. He discovered that things are not normal but similar. They look alike but not the same nonetheless. Now tell me that something as random as that is "normal" ^-^. It's not ! Don't let me think. It's dangerous !!!

Ghost

i wish you could see me now. See what I've become. The old me is dead. Still inside me, but dead. I'm happy to say that you didn't kill me. It wasn't you. You tried it but couldn't finish the job. You see, you've left me for dead but i wasn't. Others saw into it. How nice. No funeral. No grave. Nothing. Its like I've never existed. Hahaha. I guess i must be a ghost. No other explanation. I'm tired. I leave you now. I'm going to find my friend Casper. Bye bye.

Mumbling

Not much for today. Just that I find it funny when people with no direction at all try to tell me what to do. Yeah. I can fix my puzzle just fine. When you're done with yours then come talk to me. Some roles are very mistaken. Choosing to forget does not change things. The facts are clear. Don't mistake my patience for stupidity. I'm fully aware of what's going on. The solution is simple. Clear whatever you must and then you'll have the chance to get rid of me. Although so far I'm not the one who's in the way. I've been more helpful than unhelpful. You fail to recognise that. From all I was the first to step in whenever you needed help. Still I'm. Perhaps the next thing you should do is check your attitude. A bit of responsibility might help you too. You see you fail to criticise the most important person. You. Though even if you did, I'm not sure you'll find anything wrong. It works differently depending on the person. That's for a start. Good luck. Watch your attitude.

It's Coming! Soon!

Never forget! I'm not going to! Always remember! I will! You do know that nothing ends like that. Nothing goes away. Everything gets paid in this life. Not the next! Get ready! It's coming soon. And don't even dare to blame me for the result! Your mistake. You simply shouldn't fuck with the wrong people! You see being a dick for you is one think, being a dick for everyone else is another. No need for you to know what i'm talking about. Me knowing is enough! All you will know the name of the prize! Trust me you will! 

Empty Tank

I don't have time to cry for everyone separately. If i do it 1 by 1 i'll never finish. Therefor i do it once for all. As simple as that. I'm lame, i know. I should be crying for myself. After all i am a selfish bastard. But i have no more tears for me. Wasted too many already. After 1 year in misery and melancholy, after all that sadness, i remembered how it feels to care again. I never forgot its just that something happened and made me shake harder than a fully charged vibrator. Lol funny. If you're not laughing then ask someone to tickle you. Can't have you destroy my sense of humor! Anyways. As i was saying, today i got scared for someone else. It felt horrible. I could hear my heart beating out of my chest. I'm not that kind of person, but still i couldn't help myself. Time stopped, i couldn't think of anything else. Memories of my past came out and took over me. I was out. Then big questions came into my head. What do i do? What? Shall i do something? Maybe not? I can't? I mustn't? I'l  make it worse? What if i don't do anything? What then?
"Stop thinking so much. You just gonna have to take a decision. What are the risks? What are you willing to sacrifice? Make up your mind and do it."
In case you didn't get it, that was me talking to myself. Not saying you are stupid, just maybe a bit slow. He he. Joke. Tickle tickle tickle. ^-^"
Moving on. In the end i had my answer. And so I've put my nose where it didn't belong. As it turned out, i didn't had to do anything. Everything was fine. That's when i felt stupid. But still it was my decision. I don't feel proud of myself. Just a bit sad. Cause all of them memories are still here. With me. They don't want to go away. Spinning inside my head. Some good and some bad. All of them making me equally sad. Some of them created cause of decisions i've made and some of them not. And here i am now, sitting in front of a keyboard, spilling guts out again. But no tears. No tears. How cruel.