Whining

Off to a new start. Off to a new way of thinking. Enough with the old. Bring the new into my life. What the fuck am i saying? I'm always so full of shit! There's nothing new. It's always the same. Only thing gained is the experience. From that alone you can start making new decisions. And right there is the big problem. Ready set Go. Ready set Go. GOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! Nothing! So optimistic, making these ideas in my head and thinking that this is it. But nothing. No actions! Thinking of what to do and doing what i'm thinking are two different things. I'm too lazy. I'm too afraid. I'm too indifferent. The lies i tell to myself. I'm too busy. I'm too sick. I'm too poor. Even though i do have a huge obstacle in my life and i'm sure you have one of those, does that justify inaction? It's not fair. But it is what it is. Deal with it and stop whining. I'm not saying be great but at least do something. You have an expiration date. Move your ass and start doing things.

PS another attack came as i was writing. So i'll stay here not doing anything. Not moving forward. Whining. Don't let me think. It's Dangerous!