I don't have time to cry for everyone separately. If i do it 1 by 1 i'll never finish. Therefor i do it once for all. As simple as that. I'm lame, i know. I should be crying for myself. After all i am a selfish bastard. But i have no more tears for me. Wasted too many already. After 1 year in misery and melancholy, after all that sadness, i remembered how it feels to care again. I never forgot its just that something happened and made me shake harder than a fully charged vibrator. Lol funny. If you're not laughing then ask someone to tickle you. Can't have you destroy my sense of humor! Anyways. As i was saying, today i got scared for someone else. It felt horrible. I could hear my heart beating out of my chest. I'm not that kind of person, but still i couldn't help myself. Time stopped, i couldn't think of anything else. Memories of my past came out and took over me. I was out. Then big questions came into my head. What do i do? What? Shall i do something? Maybe not? I can't? I mustn't? I'l make it worse? What if i don't do anything? What then?
"Stop thinking so much. You just gonna have to take a decision. What are the risks? What are you willing to sacrifice? Make up your mind and do it."
In case you didn't get it, that was me talking to myself. Not saying you are stupid, just maybe a bit slow. He he. Joke. Tickle tickle tickle. ^-^"
Moving on. In the end i had my answer. And so I've put my nose where it didn't belong. As it turned out, i didn't had to do anything. Everything was fine. That's when i felt stupid. But still it was my decision. I don't feel proud of myself. Just a bit sad. Cause all of them memories are still here. With me. They don't want to go away. Spinning inside my head. Some good and some bad. All of them making me equally sad. Some of them created cause of decisions i've made and some of them not. And here i am now, sitting in front of a keyboard, spilling guts out again. But no tears. No tears. How cruel.
"Stop thinking so much. You just gonna have to take a decision. What are the risks? What are you willing to sacrifice? Make up your mind and do it."
In case you didn't get it, that was me talking to myself. Not saying you are stupid, just maybe a bit slow. He he. Joke. Tickle tickle tickle. ^-^"
Moving on. In the end i had my answer. And so I've put my nose where it didn't belong. As it turned out, i didn't had to do anything. Everything was fine. That's when i felt stupid. But still it was my decision. I don't feel proud of myself. Just a bit sad. Cause all of them memories are still here. With me. They don't want to go away. Spinning inside my head. Some good and some bad. All of them making me equally sad. Some of them created cause of decisions i've made and some of them not. And here i am now, sitting in front of a keyboard, spilling guts out again. But no tears. No tears. How cruel.
